My Everyday Make-Up!

Hey beauties! So today I wanted to share with you a beauty related post, my everyday make up look! Bare in mind that this is my full face of make up, for example when I have to go out to college or places like that:)

So the first thing I like to use after I've washed my face on a morning is my Nivea cream which just moisturizes my face and prepares my face for make-up I guess haha, but this does help me with clearer skin. The foundation combination I like to use is Rimmel's lasting finish 25 hour foundation in the shade 200 which is soft beige, I use this shade in the summer as I get a slight tan but in winter I would use the shade ivory. So I combine that foundation with Maybelline's Fit Me foundation in the shade 125. I've found that this is the perfect combination for me and it lasts all day giving me really good coverage too:) I use literally just less than a pump of each and mix then apply with my fingers, which is probably a bad way but it's always worked for me and saves time haha:)

After I've applied my foundation I like to use a concealer under my eyes, on the bridge of my nose and any blemishes that I may have for that day. I use Soap & Glory's kick ass concealer, probably in a light shade since I'm quite pale, but I lost the packaging sorry! But this product is the best concealer I have ever tried and I swear by it! It's amazing! Soap & Glory's products never disappoint!

Then for powder I use Maybelline's Fit Me powder in the shade 125 and I apply this with a big kabuki brush, and as you can see I will soon need another powder! This is another one of my favorite products as it just gives me that matte look and it stays all day, and with oily skin this is a big plus for a powder!

Next I use a bronzer to contour my face, I use the Rimmel Natural Bronze in the shade 022 Sun Bronze, the case is pretty banged up since this product lasts so long! I use a smaller, angled brush to apply this bronzer. It's really good in my opinion and I've used it pretty much always! So anyway I contour my cheeks, my nose, and around my face.

Now onto eye make-up, firstly I take this really cheap eye pallet which I have no idea where it's from sorry! But don't judge it by it's price, it's actually pretty good! So I take number one and place this is my inner tear duct to brighten up my eyes and really just open them up, it makes such a difference! I also place this in my water line to make my eyes appear brighter again and make me look more awake than I actually am! Next, I use number 2 as a base for my eye lid, then using 3 and 4 mixed to put in my crease and blending until it is all blended out, pretty simple:) 

Onto eyeliner and mascara, which is my most common asked question, 'how do I get my lashes so long and full?' I am already blessed by having rather long lashes naturally, but this is all I use:) I take a liquid eyeliner by Miss Sporty, another cheapish product, but, it has proven to be a great save and works great! It lasts me all day, even through my workouts! And it's easy to apply once you get the hang of it:) So I just line my eyes and give myself a little wing, as the cat eye look has been what I've loved and done for years! Once this has dried, I line my tight line I think it's called, with a simple black pencil liner from Avon, this just makes my lash line appear fuller and gives that fuller lashes look:) 

So next I use a lash curler to curl my lashes and I just pulse for around 10 seconds to really get the best from it, don't worry this does not damage your lashes! This is how I've done my lashes for years. So sometimes I do this twice, depending on how it works and to even out both lashes. But the last product I use on my eyes is the Maybelline Rocket Mascara in black. This mascara is amazing and gives my lashes so much more volume and length, look out for a review on this product soon! 

Lastly, I just use a blue baby lips by Maybelline to moisturize my lips throughout the day, I feel like this product isn't the best moisturizer but it's what I use most days:) So that is my everyday make-up! 

As you can see the products are pretty much drugstore but are still amazing products to use! So I hope you liked this post and if you have any questions you can leave a comment below or contact me on twitter or instagram, both @ georgeaaxo :)

Hope you all have a great day, 

Georgia x 

P.s. All opinions are my own and products are bought by myself, this post is not sponsored.

An Update On Life

So recently I've been going through some tough things, at least it feels like a never-ending nightmare. This is one of the reasons I've delayed posts for a week, and partly because I've been sick suffering from migraines. But I'm back now, and I've seen a new light to life. It's the harder parts of life that make us stronger and what prepares us for what's waiting for us in our lives, both the good and the bad. Soo, I've decided not to focus on the negative things in life, but focus on the positive. They do say that this makes you feel better, and already I do.

Here's a quick update; I am still battling depression, but I am extremely better than I have ever been. I haven't self harmed in a very long time, which is a big achievement for me, and I'm sure for many others who have dealt with it too. I thought I was almost completely free of the dark thoughts, but I realise at times I appear not to be, the only positive to this, is that I've learned that the only problem is my self. By this I mean the dark voice in my head isn't another voice or person. It's mine. It's all the things I'm unhappy about with myself and my life. Now you may be thinking, 'it took you that long to realise?'. However, it really did and does because the voice is completely and utterly like an entirely different person.

As for my anxiety, it has took me a long time to realise that what I was thinking was a sickness is really my anxiety, I didn't know that some of the things that come with anxiety were what I was really experiencing. These things include feeling dizziness a lot of the time, feeling sick, insomnia which I've had for years now. But I will be posting soon about it more in depth and detail. I just really didn't think that it could have been my anxiety, and knowing that it is upsets me because of how far I've come with my depression, but how I didn't realise my anxiety was getting worse. I don't really know the cause, I've been going through a lot of tough things lately, and I'm not quite ready to talk about them yet. Only Ravi knows at this point(and for those who didn't know or may be new, Ravi is my boyfriend) So I've really just been coming to terms with it myself and he has been very supportive of me which I'm so grateful for.

On the brighter side, I see now what I need to do. I need to change all the things in my life that I'm unhappy with in order to really hit that road to recovery and beat it completely this time, I need to stay positive like in this very moment. Despite that there may not be many who know what's going on when I put on a smile to the rest of the world, I feel like I have the support of the world, yet only two people know my secret.

Believe me when I say this, but things do get better in life, whether it be new people, a new job, new place, anything. Just focus on the positive, not the negative. Always remember, you are beautiful, no matter what anyone says(song moment here, if you know what I mean comment below haha) but you really are. Be true to yourself and honest, change what you feel you're unhappy with in your life, and, just always, always know you matter in the world. Many love you and care for you, life goes on, and there will be ups and down. But know that I, your family and friends, will be here for you every step of the way, both the good and bad times.

We learn from our mistakes, and become a better version of the old us.

Soo there's my quick update, and I'm back! I will be making sure posts are up on the scheduled days I promise! I am working on scheduling some posts just for good measures. So if there are any posts you would like to see please comment or find me on twitter or instagram! :) @ georgeaaxo

Your all worthy to this world, and deserve to be a part of it always

Georgia x

Depression, Anxiety & How I coped

Hey guys! So today I felt like doing a more personal blog post and a 'get a cuppa and sit comfortable' kinda post. Today's topic is depression and anxiety as this is something I have suffered with in the past but I battled through like a soldier, respect to all the real, brave soldiers out there fighting for out country btw. But today I want you guys to be brave soldiers in a way and know that you are all worthy and special in your own ways, your friends and family love you and everything will be okay eventually, I promise you.

This is my story, you can scroll down to certain sections if you are only interested in certain parts:)

• Where it began: - 

I don't really know when my depression began exactly, I was bullied a lot through primary school, or middle school I think is the equivalent to our English primary school for you Americans. It was nothing too serious back then, just the little tiffs you would get in primary schools. But then I started secondary, which I think is high school, but don't quote me on that one haha! Anyway, when secondary school started, there was this one girl who seemed to really have it in for me since day one, she tried to take my best friend away from me and tried to make me be alone in ways. So I didn't really know what to do, I've always been quite shy in a way and quiet. Timid you could say. So I kinda just put up with it, but then as every school has, the rumors started, nothing too bad, but enough to make people question me. I again dealt with this and kept quiet. But it got to a point where the lies she made up about me began to upset me, and she somehow managed to turn everyone against me, so I stopped going to school. I didn't go to school for months, I just disappeared, I didn't want to leave my house at all. So I guess this is kinda where it began.

• Hospital encounters: -

The stress and worry of thinking about eventually having to go back to school at some point brought on my first period, it was okay, but then it got really heavy and to a point where I was rushed into hospital for losing too much blood. I was put into a children's ward the first time and I was there for a few days. They took a lot, and I mean a lot of blood samples from me and also did other tests such as an ultrasound to see what was in my stomach or uterus, I don't know but they looked inside me okay! So that was pretty scary, I was asked weird questions like 'are you abused at home?' or 'when you've visited your dad has he sexually abused you?' which to me was very scary and upsetting, since I was only around 12 years old. And just to say, no I was never abused as a child, I have always had a loving and caring upbringing.

I was eventually put onto some medication and discharged, only to be rushed back in a week later. Soo the second time I was there they did more tests on me, another ultrasound, a few x-rays and they wanted to do another test which I have no idea what it's called but basically they put a camera up your personal parts and yeah you can guess how scared I was at this point. They didn't get the permission to do that test though so I was put onto different medication to stop the bleeding completely because I was at the stage where I needed a blood transfusion, luckily, I just managed to miss this as the tablets kicked in quickly. Buut, my medication was 21 tablets a day. Yes, 21, at 12 years old. I was discharged again eventually but on strict bed rest, so my mum looked after me day and night bless her heart haha. I'm so blessed to have such caring family. Not so long after, I was rushed in again for the third and final time. This time my medication was lowered to 2 tablets which was more effective. They didn't do many more tests, just ultrasounds but nothing was found.

I went through all the doctors in the hospital who knew anything about the menstrual cycle or any doctors curious enough to try to solve the problem, but like I said, to this day no one knows what happened with my body and they can only put it down to stress. I'm still on those 2 tablets today, having only one period a year to have a break. But what scared me the most was that I wondered for months what was wrong with me and why I was different. I began to wonder if I was supposed to be in this world, or what my point in living was since I seemed to be an 'unsolvable problem'.

• Self-Harming: - 

I eventually went back to school, and people did wonder where I had been at first, but it became clear that the girl from the beginning had been lying and I was once again happy. But I received a test message one day while at home, I didn't know the number, but it said I should go kill myself, because no one cares about me and the world would be a better place without me. My mum instantly rang the number, and what shocked me and shook me the most was that my best friend answered the phone call. As you can imagine, I felt betrayed and shocked at this point, and you may think this is a joke but this is a true story, I wish it wasn't. It turned out that my best friend had supposedly been threatened to send the text by the girl from the beginning. Looking back, I wonder how someone could be so evil and twisted to do those things. 

I began self harming shortly after, I believed that the world would be a better place without me, I believed that no one cared. It started with small cuts, anywhere I felt like harming on my body. But they got deeper, and bigger, because I liked the pain. I would have to cover all my body in long sleeved clothes, I self harmed for a year without anyone noticing. You may be thinking, 'how didn't your family notice?'. Well it was pretty easy as I normally covered up a lot, self conscious of my body already, and England doesn't really have a summer so it was never too hot for long sleeved clothes. But friends began to notice at school, I was in a better place at school, a big group of friends and trustworthy ones, and they told me I should see a doctor, I disagreed and pushed them away at first. I eventually realized that they were right, I didn't want to be this way anymore. It had got to the point where I was trying to overdose myself on tablets, I hated what I had become. 

At the doctors, they questioned me on how I felt, if I felt demotivated, and if I lost interest in my hobbies. All of which were true. He advised a counselor so I went to weekly sessions with a counselor at my school. These helped a lot, it lasted normally an hour, I sometimes dreading going to them, but I always felt so much better afterwards. A lot of the sessions I would cry, she'd give me a tissue and be supportive. So I guess my point is that telling someone really does help, and you will eventually feel better, my family was supportive when I told them and so were friends. Never believe what bullies may tell you, or even the dark parts of your mind throughout depression. You are worthy and you deserve to be happy. You are you and no one can take that away from you. You have the power to stand up to that dark voice inside your head and get on the road to recovery. It will be hard at times, but it's possible, and I, your family, and friends, support you all the way. 

• Anxiety: -

I still suffer from anxiety and panic attacks sometimes, but it used to be quite often when I was going through depression. I couldn't be in crowded places, I would panic and I would feel faint. I found it hard to breathe at times and I couldn't focus, everything was just a blur. I found that if I tried to focus on one thing, like a friend or the person your with, or a certain place to look at, it calmed me and I could come out of the panic attack quicker than without focusing. I'm sure there are other ways, which I'll look into and do another blog post maybe to help anyone who may need it:) But that's just what helped me and how I kinda coped through it. 

So I hope any of that helped anyone haha, it was a whopper of a post! I'm sorry about that I just felt that it could maybe help someone and I felt like doing more of a personal blog post today. If anyone would like me to do a post on the things that helped me stop self harming and how I became clean from it then please comment below and I'd be happy to as I learnt a few ways both from experience and doctors:) I just felt like this post is already too long haha! Leave any questions  you may have in the comments below or even anything you want to say and I will happily reply when I can:) 

Or you can tweet at me or comment on my instagram @ georgeaaxo :)

And always remember, you're worthy of your place in this world and things do get better with time.

Georgia x 

DIY: Longer Lasting Yankee Candles

Hey guys! Soo today I wanted to share with you a little trick I've learnt, as you all may know, Yankee candles can be pricey at times, but, I have found a way to do it a lot cheaper, with the same brand, and it still lasts longer than the big candles! It's also cuter in my opinion too!

What you will need:

• A candle burner, an example is shown above 
• A tealight
• A sample of a Yankee candle of your choice 

You can get candle burners(I'm not too sure if this is their actual name) from pretty much anywhere, I got mine from a local home goods store, but I have seen them in supermarkets, candle shops(may be pricier here) and many other places. They're quite inexpensive too, mine was around £4-5, which works out cheaper in the long run! 

So what you're gonna do is place your sample of the Yankee candle you chose in the top of the candle, the one I chose is 'Summer Scoop' by Yankee Candles, as you can use other samples if you'd like, and it was priced at £1.25. This is on of my personal favorites as it smells soo good and summery. It looks cute with the pastel color too! The tea-lights were also inexpensive, coming in a pack with around 30 for only £1.50!

So once you've placed the candle sample in the top, taking the packaging off first obviously haha, place a lit tealight in the 'cave' as I like to call it, of the candle burner. And wait for the candle sample to start melting, the smell comes off a lot stronger than the normal candles this way too, so it's a great DIY! Once the tealight has finished burning, the candle sample will harden, ready for when you next burn it. The smell stays a long time after too which is another plus! But remember to be careful as the melted mixture will be extremely hot, so keep away from pets or children. 

I got my longer lasting 'candle' for about £7-8, bargain! When usually, it would cost me around 10-15 pounds just to get a medium Yankee candle, that lasts no where near as long as this way does! You can get so many burns out of the mixture, and you could even stock up on different samples you want to try as they're so inexpensive and easy to use. So this way is prettier and can be a home decoration, longer lasting candle and smells amazing since the smell comes off so much stronger than the big candles!

Let me know if you use this trick and if you want more DIYs like this!:)

Georgia x 

Retreating To Nature

So last year, in November I traveled to Centre Parcs with family for a small get away, at the time we were all feeling rather down and needed a holiday since it was long overdue! Now I know this isn't a recent event, but I was not a blogger at the time and I felt that the pictures I took while on vacation there were quite beautiful and therapeutic, I'd love to go there again! I wish I'd took photos of the lovely cabins we stayed in, living in a forest for a week was so beautifully beautiful haha!

 We went on a boat on the lake, a paddle/peddle boat? I don't know haha! But it was so relaxing and beautiful, and a rather a big achievement for me since I am extremely scared of water! I loved how in this picture the reflection of the trees showed in the water and the ripples of the water make it slightly blurry, it's beautiful, count how many times I say that word in this post haha. In the picture you can see the balconies of the river side cabins, unfortunately we didn't stay in those cabins, since it was our first time staying there we just thought it would be nice to be lost in the forest somewhere, and it was still a great experience. Ducks would come knock on our patio door on a morning for food, yes, I said knock! It was so cute, there were also lovely multicolored pheasants wandering around the cabins, it was so astonishing and a wonderful experience to be so close to nature.

This photo again was on the lake, but it shows the restaurant that was kinda built on the lake, cool hey! But I loved the reflection of the building in the water, like the trees, but I prefer this reflection as it almost fades into the water. As we paddled around the lake, there were swans and ducks swimming with us, it was cute and amazing at the same time.

Here's another picture of the lake from the walkway to the main building of Centre Parcs, where the shops, restaurants and the gigantic swimming pool is located! And there's the boats we rented to paddle on the lake. I love this picture because of the sand and the boats add some color, considering the lake is such a dark tone, it was originally like this! These photos have barely been edited. I also love how you can see the outer side of the enclosed forest which we lived in for our stay to the back of the lake, it looks so beautiful and it's a nature overload!

This photo was taken just by the previous photo, just simply turned a few degrees. The reflection looks so cool, water can be amazingly beautiful. The little balcony kinda thing over the lake was where they set off hundreds, yes hundreds, of fireworks, since we stayed during bonfire night. The total firework show lasted over 10 minutes, and somehow, I was amazed every second, with different fireworks creating different designs in the sky every time, there was such a wide range.

It was hard to photograph the fireworks since they moved so fast, but I did try haha, but we mostly videoed it to capture the every design and movement since there was so much going on, and excuse the random peoples heads, I'm small haha.

I did forget to show that there was another pond, or maybe it was connected to the lake I'm not really sure haha! But there was water that's all I know!

It shows part of the main centre inside area, but overall Centre Parcs was an amazing experience despite the little activities we did it was still beautiful and even just a walk around the forest was soo therapeutic. I'd love to go back there some time and take more photos as there were so many potential places to photograph.

So yeah I hope you enjoyed this different kind of blog post and if you would like more posts like this(walks, day in the lifes) then let me knoww:)

Georgia x

A Few Easy Book Reads

So recently I've been getting back into reading a lot, and I have to admit I was dragged into the feels of John Green's book, The Fault In Our Stars. I feel like this book has so many different emotions in it, it's overwhelming at times! But I do love this book and I love the cute relationship between the two in this romance(no spoilers!). I look forward to reading more of John Green's writing as this book was so well write that I couldn't put the book down, I read this in just under 2 days! I also can't wait to see the movie version after reading such a perfectly put together, quick read.

Another book that I've recently read is Divergent By Veronica Roth. This is part of the Divergent trilogy series and so far I have read the first and second book, Insurgent, in the series. So unfortunately I do not have the third book yet, I know, the suspense is killing me! So that explains why Allegiant isn't pictured below. But onto the book, Divergent was my first time reading a dystopian themed book, and I fell in love with the theme straight away. It was straight into the story and it captured me from the first word which I loved. The things Tris, or Beatrice, has to go through throughout this series is exciting, thrilling but like an emotional roller-coaster at times. I found the concept of the story easy to understand and despite it being my first dystopian, it was easy for me to read, and again this was another book that I couldn't put down and I read Insurgent straight after.

Also in the picture above is Clockwork Princess by Cassandra Clair, the first in one of her series. However I haven't got around to reading this one yet since I want to continue on with the Divergent series, and it is only pictured as it was an Amazon haul picture. But I have heard very good reviews about this book and I cannot wait to start the series. Let me know what you think about these books or any other book recommendations you may have:)

 Georgia x